I waved goodbye to my two oldest daughters, along with WB and my Dad. They are headed back home and they took a little piece of my heart with them. Little One and I are staying with my Mom here in Houston due to another flare up of my chronic ear problems. After a visit to my ear specialist here at MD Anderson it was determined I had fluid in one ear, hence the reason for all my pain. Long story short we're going to try some meds to see if it will get better and then I will make the trip home. It probably is only for a week, unless it gets worse and I have to have surgery. Still, I'm not used to being away from my girls.
Last night Soph burst into tears on and off anticipating the separation. When it was time for bed both Em and Soph were hysterical. I think Em is just upset to be going back to school and maybe a little bit missing me! My dear mother climbed in between them in bed and tried to console them as I sat holding their hands. Truth be told I was ready to declare, "Never mind school, you're staying here with me!" I remained strong though and eventually they feel asleep.
This morning it went much smoother as they waved goodbye to me out the car window as soft drizzle rained down upon me. It was a gloomy morning, both inside and out. I felt like a piece of me was missing as I went about the morning. Little One has been irritable all day, but I don't blame her.
So I'm trying to look at this as a little vacation. But truth be told I'd rather take a vacation with my entire family, without the pain and guilt. Although, I am sure there will be plenty of interesting stories to be told as my girls go through the week with my father playing mom and WB filling in the gaps!! I'll let you know...