Saturday, January 3, 2009

Tugging at the heartstrings...

I waved goodbye to my two oldest daughters, along with WB and my Dad. They are headed back home and they took a little piece of my heart with them. Little One and I are staying with my Mom here in Houston due to another flare up of my chronic ear problems. After a visit to my ear specialist here at MD Anderson it was determined I had fluid in one ear, hence the reason for all my pain. Long story short we're going to try some meds to see if it will get better and then I will make the trip home. It probably is only for a week, unless it gets worse and I have to have surgery. Still, I'm not used to being away from my girls.
Last night Soph burst into tears on and off anticipating the separation. When it was time for bed both Em and Soph were hysterical. I think Em is just upset to be going back to school and maybe a little bit missing me! My dear mother climbed in between them in bed and tried to console them as I sat holding their hands. Truth be told I was ready to declare, "Never mind school, you're staying here with me!" I remained strong though and eventually they feel asleep.
This morning it went much smoother as they waved goodbye to me out the car window as soft drizzle rained down upon me. It was a gloomy morning, both inside and out. I felt like a piece of me was missing as I went about the morning. Little One has been irritable all day, but I don't blame her.
So I'm trying to look at this as a little vacation. But truth be told I'd rather take a vacation with my entire family, without the pain and guilt. Although, I am sure there will be plenty of interesting stories to be told as my girls go through the week with my father playing mom and WB filling in the gaps!! I'll let you know...

5 comments:

The Fritz Facts said...

I am so sorry you are having such ear pain! I am the queen of ear pain, so I understand the discomfort. Boo is also dealing with fluid in her ears, we are watching that closely. Hopefully she won't need tubes...

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Hope you feel better!!

Sasha @ Cherished Moments said...

Sorry to hear about the ear pain. Fingers crossed that the meds do the trick. As for missing the girls - it's funny how we sometimes long for a few minutes peace and quiet, but then miss our family like crazy when it comes along. This mama-hood business does crazy things to us!

Pat's Place said...

Well, I must say that you all are being very brave about this! It is hard on all of you, I am sure. I think WB was almost at the edge of panic when he told me about the situation. I was really distressed that I had already made plans to help out in NM. I am hoping the ear pain is resolved this week and you can rejoin the crew after a week of batching it. For a child's view of this, read my story about Aunt Patty! Tell your dad to stay away from ground roast beef sandwiches!

kpottlitzer said...

hang in there! it will make for some good stories. i wish you weren't having so much trouble with you ear. that just sucks.

Lisa said...

So I'm not the best blogger...I try for 1-2 times a month.

I just added your blog to my google reader. Loved reading about the family. The girls are such cuties!!

Good luck with your ears. Hope it resolves really soon.

Lisa